You lived through unspeakable sacrifices also it left you scarred forever. Sitting alone daily, not able to move or answer whatever, being toy into a care takers. But that is the fantastic part. Because whenever you are lonely, that is once they come. Nightly that the nightmares go back and nightly they're very different. You never understand exactly what shape they'll require, but something you can rely on - they'll COME AGAIN!